i'm lovestucked and i can't get out.

everyday, my life is a fantasy.
you, are everything i ever wanted.
but the timing is a bit, off.
i just wish to be alone.
and my life wouldn't be as complicated. =D

i hate not having a cam phone.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh.
now like got no pictures to upload.
RARR!!
this sucks.

( tales of the broken hearted. )

call me stupid or out dated, but i just started on ooVoo.
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oh man i love ooVoo.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH!! it rocks! =P
was webcamming with ZY today for fun..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
asked gerri to webcam with me, she dun want.
she say she dun wanna see my face.. =(

i want you, the way you want me.
BROWNIES! =DDD
<3 loves loves!!
LOVETHS THEE OVEN!!

I SWEAR, the love i had for you is TOTALLY GONE today. =/
fucking annoyed.

isn't it annoying when someone tries to butt in almost every time.
making his/ her presence known when they don't matter at all?
right.
why am i annoyed?
because you butt in almost every time i talk to someone.
like for example, today: "tell so and so i said hi"
when he was talking to me on MSN.
it's like, what..
you want the WHOLE world to know you exist?
they already do..
so just stop TRYING SO HARD?
i know you may feel left out.
but seriously get you own life.
i'm sick and tired of explaining everything to you.
you asking random questions at random timings and expecting me to answer them.
WHEN I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE WHAT YOU JUST ASKED?
then you get upset cuz i dun answer you. =/
GOD!

*PISSED, PEK CHEK*
whatever..
sometimes i just get so fed up i wish that i was just dreaming..
then i realise that it's reality.
and i think i've made a HUGE mistake.

where else, sometimes i think that you're the sweetest thing on earth.
and i totally love you.

but so far, the CONs out weigh the PROs.
so GIVE ME A BREAK, pls!

stop being overly paranoid.
if not, i will really show you my wrath. =/

PS: not EVERYTHING is ABOUT YOU, other ppl have their own life.

today, i realise the people in your life, slowly will fade.
they'll leave and it'll nvr be the same again.
=/
especially guy friends.
when they've got other girls.
they just ignore you.
right.
oh wells.

the person who sprayed lemon barley on me!!!
HAHA!
shaun, you WATCH OUT!
my face looks damn cram..

NYAA camp!
@ day 3. abt 1/2 the campers went home on 2nd day cuz of Father's Day.
but it was still fun!!! =DDD
<3 my OG peeps!!!!
my fellow OGLs and the ORGANISING COMMITTEE!!

in the event of me and you.
there's nothing which i can do.
people might call this a dilema.
i call it, my miracle.

anyone ever seen me get jealous till i threw a fit?
i'm amazed at myself.
you're no longer mine and i got so angry when i saw you flirting with another girl.
it's been about 3 years already and you still have a hold over me.
this is why i'm giving it all back to you.
i can't feel this way abt you.
bcuz your heart waivered.
you were the one who couldn't choose.
i don't wanna feel this way.
i hate being this way.
you, are free.
and so am i.

your feelings abt this doesn't matter bcuz this is my decision.

so NYAA dry-run was....................................................
waste of time, but fun.
when there was things actually done.
-_-"
most of the time i was just entertaining myself.
by watching what was going on below me.
it was quite interesting.
how fast things are progressing.
it happens so fast that.
it's too hard to stop it from crashing.
i guess learning it the hard way is the only way they'll learn.
it none of my business if they rise or they fall.
i just feel sad.
oh wells, actual camp on FRIDAY!
need to prepare!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

ohh!! and something totally random i saw today:
rocky totally look hot in a dress. ROFL!
ROFL!
i applaud him for being a man and doing that! =D
takes a lot of courage.

totally dreading tmr.
it sucks being misunderstood.
but i guess that's just my life.
i still hate seeing THEM.
but i have to live with it till nxt yr.
then comes another one.
the next batch.
totally.

tell me how to ignore?
i wish i could be like SF.
just don't give a damn and carry on living life as though nth happened.
it's easier being him cuz he doesn't have to see them.

but what to do when ppl do things like,
call you names.
but you totally ignore.
and treat you like shit.

oh wells,
being blamed for something he did.
right.
i'll always live with that.

why must tmr be the dry run..
it's like no matter how much i try to ignore
and try to live and not bother anyone.
i seem to get myself thrown into the place.
exactly where i DO NOT want to be.


i just hope they'll LEAVE ME ALONE tmr.
or maybe i'll just go home.

GOD,
I DO NOT WANT TO SEE THEM.
PLEASE TELL THEM TO LEAVE ME ALONE.

i wanna go be in my shell and stay in there.
i am tired of fighting a battle that i didn't start.
and i am tired of ppl blaming me for something i didn't do.
i want to be left alone.
tt's all i ask for.

my life is an epic tragedy.

( VanNess Wu's brother is the HOTSS. )

 
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i think i look hot. =P
I am like so totally in love with myself in this picture.
=P

dangling from a string which can snap any minute.
oops.
*SNAP*
down i go.

why do i hate you so much?

love,
once lost, can it be regained?
once given, can it be taken back?
once given but is now lost, what to do?

i love you, but just not the same anymore and i dunno,
i'm trying really hard not to go that path.
but it's like everything you do just seems to bring me away from you.
and every time i decide to give try, you do something which totally just makes me doubtful of where this can go.

i'm waiting.
for you, to grow up,
be more mature,
think straight and use your brain.
stop making excuses for the wrongs you do.
and stop clinging on to me.
only maybe then, will i learnt to love you once more.

i don't wanna tell you straight in the face, cuz you still have your pride.
so i'm just. =/
really don't know how to put it.
i'm sorry.
and please dun cry,
i'm not putting up this post to mock you or leave you.
i just want you to know how i truely feel.

 Karma is a killer.
now i know how it feels to let someone go.
be free and try not to care.